9:4<\/p>\n
June the second, nineteen hundred and fifty<\/p>\n
He says I have to practice my script. He says that if I can’t write properly then I can’t think properly; and if I can’t think then I’m just a waste of His time, that He might as well take me back to the bridge and toss me over like my father was going to.<\/p>\n
And so I will write for Him. But I will also write for myself. This will be a journal for me and me alone; He will never see it, never judge it, and it will be my secret. Not like that tatty leather book He has. I bet He doesn’t even suspect that I’ve been reading it. And that is justice: I will steal from him as He steals from everyone. And now I’ve stolen a new name from Him too. His book ‘gave’ it to me and who am I to refuse. Let Him call me whatever He wants, for I know someday He will call me it for the last time.<\/p>\n
For He is the master of chaos, an illusion of the devil and the very incarnation of destruction, and I will contain Him. I will bring order to the world and lay Him low.<\/p>\n
And so here I set out my plan.<\/p>\n
Ordo ab chaos
\nBarnabas<\/p>\n
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