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\nBeginnings are never easy. They aren’t pretty or charming or sweet. Beginnings are messy, chaotic and always treading on the razor fine edge of disastrous.<\/p>\n
We like to think that that’s not true, to fool ourselves by rewriting our own histories to make the starting points glorious or beautiful or simply charming. But that’s what’s easy about beginnings: rewriting them. Looking back and saying in a sappy little voice \u201cOh my goodness, that was so easy, I have no idea why I didn’t do that earlier…\u201d And it’s completely natural. No woman would bear another child if that beginning was really that fraught, no love affairs would spring up if the insecurities and fear were the lasting impression.<\/p>\n
We never forget, but we remember our beginnings differently. And we see others fits and starts through the black lenses of a welders helmet: protected from the pain and soul-burning glare and thus able to judge the merit and quality of the new thing without scars.<\/p>\n
But not all beginnings can be rewritten. Not all scars can be whisked away or masked by the medicinal properties of time. Sometimes the pain never goes away. Sometimes it is impossible to forget.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
7:29 Beginnings are never easy. They aren’t pretty or charming or sweet. Beginnings are messy, chaotic and always treading on the razor fine edge of disastrous. We like to think that that’s not true, to fool ourselves by rewriting our own histories to make the starting points glorious or beautiful or simply charming. But that’s […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false},"categories":[29],"tags":[43],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/macblaze.ca\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5129"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/macblaze.ca\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/macblaze.ca\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/macblaze.ca\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/macblaze.ca\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=5129"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/macblaze.ca\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5129\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/macblaze.ca\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=5129"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/macblaze.ca\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=5129"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/macblaze.ca\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=5129"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}